Its 3+pm on a lazy Sunday afternoon, and absolutely nothing's happening right now. Everything's so dead currently, even the wind's stop. The trees are standing still, its like time just stopped or something. I guess I should be studying and mugging but I'm finding it so hard to, just really unmotivated and uninspired. So here I am, typing away to Groove Armada's Raising The Stakes when I should really be looking at my Banking and Finance notes (test on Wednesday) and trying to figure out how exactly to use all the funny formulae that's scattered all over Chapter 7.
Aside from being grouchy that today's Sunday and tomorrow's the start of yet another school week, everything else is fine. On the homefront, peace and tranquility because my Dad's back and my Mom's happy. But he's flying off again on Tuesday so its back to the mundane routine of figuring out what's for dinner at night this coming week. Girlfriend's same ol' same ol', which is a good thing. I've learnt (sort of) the butterfly stroke courtesy of her the past week, now I just need to figure out how to stay afloat while doing it. Fell slightly ill over the weekend, but I've somehow managed to run off the symptoms and I'm sort of fine, for now at least. I think its due to the lack of sleep from all the last minute work I've been doing for my tutorials and assignments. Really need to start work once its been given, procrastination kills.
I just recently got news that I'll be home alone for most of December, as my Mom makes her trip to Cambodia to live with my Dad, which is a good and bad thing. For the good stuff, my Mom gets to be with my Dad. I get to have my own bachelor pad. I get to move the TV, the fridge, the microwave, into my room (okay just the TV la, the rest no space). Which means my room will be SCV enabled, so I don't see any need to leave my room unless its for essential needs, namely toilet breaks and food + water. I can live in air con bliss for the whole of December.

The bad? Eating out every single meal. Argh. No eating out at nice places, expenses paid for. Actually that's basically it haha.

Jebu finally ORDs tomorrow, it seemed so long ago when I was still in camp and we were discussing our ORD dates, and how I'd be making fun of Jebu's date. Fun times those were, and I'll be meeting him this Friday for a skating session, finally! Its been so long since I've seen him, let alone skate with him. I hope he's finally gotten his ollie right, and I better start practicing my kickflips, 'cos I think I've lost almost everything already. Its been so long since I skated properly.

On the music front, I'm looking forward to Armin Van Buuren at Zouk! I've never seen him live before, and I'm hoping he makes it a blast. Probably will be going with Pele, since we're both tranceheads. Been listening less of trance at home though, I have been starting to listen to some deep house as well as get more house songs. I think its true that tranceheads will somehow meddle around with house tunes after awhile. Trance alone is too cold and static sometimes.

I was watching Scrubs (again) recently, and there were 2 that kinda stuck in my head even after I was done with them. One was where JD was losing respect from his interns and how he felt so alone despite having his friends around him. More specifically, it was this quote that stuck with me

"‘Cos nothing sucks more than feeling all alone, no matter how many people are around you."

Not sure how many people have actually gone through that before, but it brought back memories. When you somehow feel like no one understands what you're going through, even though some of them are your close friends, and how you feel isolated, boxed out.

The other episode was when Elliot was in a really deep mess, and she couldn't seem to get her life sorted out. When JD Turk and Elliot were the on-call residents that night, they needed to help one another out, but Elliot was left out because she was deemed as crap. Once again, the quote was the one that stuck out.

"Being such a mess that your friends don’t even ask for your help, that’s the bottom of the barrel."

That's like, the JC days for me. I've actually done some thinking on my JC days, which my girlfriend titled The Lost Days. I had absolutely no idea what I was doing back then, I was wasting away my life, and my opportunities. Of course I was a mess. I couldn't do a simple Chem J1 question when I was a J2 student, about to take my A's. I was a complete idiot. My friends, hell, everyone, knew I was a mess. My teachers loathed me, my friends tried to spur me on but to no avail, and my parents were disappointed with me. I had no idea why I didn't just study though, it was almost as if I was certain that even if I tried, I'd fail anyway. Not to mention I was still a rebellious childish kid who thought that despite all this I could still pull a miracle and prove everyone wrong. How wrong I was. To sum it up, I was a rebellious, self-deluding low self-esteemed kid who thought everyone else was wrong except me.

Thank goodness that's all in the past.